(In Terms of) In-doubt: Self-Introspection

There’s one thing that keeps me up on some nights:

Will my ambitions come to life one day?

For at least "some" of them, will they? I will become an architect soon, right?

"One day," yeah.

[Grammarly tells me to sound confident in my words: "I will become an architect soon."] Fine, I will.

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Despite all the moments I've stood confidently in front of others and taken great pride in my work, there are times when doubt creeps in. It’s that overthinking, mischievous mindset that blurs my vision of the future, making me second-guess myself. But I know I have to go through it, fix it, and move forward with less hesitation.

Photographed by: Luke Shadbolt

I understand that I need to keep believing in myself. I must be supportive of my plans, while also considering the potential consequences they bring. It’s important to listen to my soul—my inner voice—rather than relying solely on my mind to initiate my actions.

The mind can be complex, which is why I need to make necessary adjustments to my perceptions, thought processes, and decision-making as I work toward my goals. This helps me stay on track and continue making progress.

I don’t want to remain in this state of doubt. I don't want to settle for feeling anxious, angry, or afraid about the paths I'm taking while I’m still searching for my purpose and striving to reach my ambitions, which sometimes feel like distant stars in outer space. I want to just keep dreaming and believe that one day, they will come true.